cars

hah it's been quite awhile..

bacc with more junk. Today was slow, but thats how it is when nothing seems to lift u up. Sitting in my loth around 5, with the window open a little and my siblings sleeping, i felt like i was in solitude, it was relatively quiet except the sound of passing cars. As odd as it may sound, it felt like the silence forced me to think. I had no clue about what but just random things. Things like life. Life. Its a funny thing...they say life is like a roller coster, i never really understood why, it might have been because for a certain amount of time it felt like i was shielded by smiles, friends, and family from some of the more corrupted things. Things such as gangs and drugs. I would go into depth about my thoughts i mean who has time to read that kinda junk? So anyway, in the end i never really came out with an answer, but just that life can be really screwed up no matter what you make of it. I'm just glad to know that for now, my life is simple. but you never know things could change in a blink of an eye.

English Class

Hahah who blogs during their english class? I am.

Anyways, the library lady is trying to explain our way around the school's library database for our I-search project. Wow, it's hella hard to understand anything when students are yelling back at the librarian. Hahah fucking Kern searching porn sites next to me too. Horny off our librarian's soft, demanding tender voice. Mmm. Anyways, I gotta research the immigrant's plight to an American Dream.

Late

Morning delight..not

Wow, I almost forgot I ever had a blogger. Hhaha well thanks to many of those bloggers, I'm back blogging right now. Right off the top of my head hmm, nothing philosophical or anything, so I'll just tell you readers how my day went. Woke up, shower breakfast and headed for school. 1st period was pretty much smooth sailing, wait no, I take that back. There was a fucking test today. I don't think I did too well, whatever, as long as I can hold my grade up still. 2nd period, just watched an educational movie while taking notes. 2nd to 3rd period though, fuck the rain hella poured and I had to run from Science wing to the F hall. Ah the rest of the day happened. The end.

Sorry for the cutoff, too tired. Late

Camera

My sudden interest in photography has convinced me to save up for a camera. Vince is currently giving me some insights on which Nikon to buy, D40x or D80, and some quick lessons on which lens to use. Nikon, here I come!

Epiphany

Lately, I've been seeing myself drift away from who I really am, what really matters in life, and most importantly, what my goals and dreams to becoming a success in life. The transition alone from freshman year to now can be seen by everyone. Constant questions of 'who am I turning into' run through my head. Call me stupid but it's true. I was so straightedge. I never had the idea in my head of getting girls as a competition. I couldn't even tell the fucking difference between alcohol or beer (this is an exaggeration to some extent), or what a stoge meant, or was there any set amount of shots it takes for one to get drunk. I used to think I could go anywhere in life at the rate I was moving at, focusing mainly on education and equal balance of fun to come along with it. It is conceited to think like this, but hey, as long as it drives you right? Yes, people say you only live life once too, but why fucking live it like this? If you had all the resources, all the support in the world (from your family and friends), all the potential to make it in life, you must be stupid to throw all that away to live your life the way others want you to live it. I've realized that today, who am I changing into? I need to stop having my mind so set on going to parties or having fun all the time. I need to turn back into my old-self, and realize what's really important for me as of now. That's the person I need to be, besides, people liked me better that way.