Epiphany

Lately, I've been seeing myself drift away from who I really am, what really matters in life, and most importantly, what my goals and dreams to becoming a success in life. The transition alone from freshman year to now can be seen by everyone. Constant questions of 'who am I turning into' run through my head. Call me stupid but it's true. I was so straightedge. I never had the idea in my head of getting girls as a competition. I couldn't even tell the fucking difference between alcohol or beer (this is an exaggeration to some extent), or what a stoge meant, or was there any set amount of shots it takes for one to get drunk. I used to think I could go anywhere in life at the rate I was moving at, focusing mainly on education and equal balance of fun to come along with it. It is conceited to think like this, but hey, as long as it drives you right? Yes, people say you only live life once too, but why fucking live it like this? If you had all the resources, all the support in the world (from your family and friends), all the potential to make it in life, you must be stupid to throw all that away to live your life the way others want you to live it. I've realized that today, who am I changing into? I need to stop having my mind so set on going to parties or having fun all the time. I need to turn back into my old-self, and realize what's really important for me as of now. That's the person I need to be, besides, people liked me better that way.